Purpose

This morning around 4 Tanner woke up crying. I went in to settle him back down. I picked him up and snuggled him. He put his 2 fingers in his mouth and nuzzled into my neck as I stood there rocking him. I was thinking how rare moments like that were and how much I enjoyed being there. I was staring blankly at his crib when a very distinct thought came to my mind, "To this end were you created". I had a flood of emotion and thoughts and impressions come to me. I had this feeling like I had "arrived". I felt like my whole life I had wished, wanted, waited, and prayed for exactly what I have now. I am a mother and a wife. I had a glimpse of who I was to my Father in Heaven. I may not be a perfect mother or wife, but He doesn't care. Just as my own parents love me for who I am, so does He. Nothing else mattered at that moment but to hold my baby and relish in that feeling. He loves each of us for our effort in trying to better the kingdom in the ways we can. I am so grateful to be a mother. Everything in my life has prepared me to be a mother. Every lesson in Primary, Young Women's, and Relief Society has lead me here. Heavenly Father sends us here to be a part of a family. I loved being raised in my family. I had excellent examples of loving the roles of being a wife and mother. I am blessed to have 4 beautiful children. Hopefully the Lord will bless us with a couple more. I love being married to Nathaniel. I love how fun marriage is. I love that I get to be with my best friend every day. I love that he loves me even though he knows my flaws more than anyone else. What a blessing he is in my life.
I am planning a Standards Night for the Young Women in our ward. I have thought a lot about what I want to speak on. Of course there is the obvious modesty topic, but there has to be more than that. I want them to see how much the Lord loves them and all he has in store for them. Women are so blessed to be who they are. I want these girls to see that. I want them to not just prepare now to be a wife and a mother, but to look forward to it. I want them to feel of their potential. We are daughters of God. We are blessed to have that knowledge. With that comes strength and responsibility. I hope I can help them see who they really are. I am grateful for that moment this morning to help remind me who I really am.